A Day of Shame
Posted: Monday, January 11, 2010
by Kian Ultan Andrew
A Day of Shame
A day of shame, righteous I'm not
Mouth full of lies, head full of rot
Stomach dropped, gripped in fear, damaged fuse
Consequences due, I wait, I muse
"Why do I do it?" I question myself
Quietly I stare, sabotage of self
Bewildered and lonely, I know who I am
Self loathing and hatred, no good as a man
Stand forth, show yourself! My insides
Honesty eludes me, can't swallow my pride
Flagellation continues, harsh self acts
A small child cowers, the sight of an axe
Growing up is harder, at thirty nine
Responsibility looms, look, the signs
Run from my children, never a wife
Been doing this dance, all of my life
Debts and bills, drugs and pills
Nothing ever mattered, ‘cept getting my fill
Cards reshuffled, a new hand dealt
A son now closer, my heart set to melt
Clean, new, FORGIVEN, you.....MarijoYes Marijo, the beautiful all cleansing Grace of God!
Congrats on this being Jean's pick of the day! Keep writing and sharing with us, your SW family, I think you have a real gifting! HE is able - just keep hanging tightly to His most capable hand! MarijoThanks Marijo,I really do feel part of a very special family!I am growing, I do feel something deep inside that I cannot easily explain...... God?We are the temple of the Holy Spirit if we have asked Jesus to forgive us and be our Lord and Savior so....GRIN.
One plus two makes three. One and two may have been a bit dodgy but three is ok and would have not come into being without one and two. There are no bad experiences, only experiences and how you judge them. Stop judging yourself, because it hurts and you have had enough of that lot.I am working on this, I am more OK than I have ever been. I have had enough...